stressed

typing up my answers, finishing my drawing. otherwise ready yet still nervous. I think Im missing something...

Happy Halloween!

Im very excited for halloween, I have a great costume that I put together that I am proud of. The only problem is I have nothing to do, so Ill prolly just be watching some movies at home.

Small update

everything is going great. Play is this week, come see it

I was bored today, I wrote some short monologues for nothing, apparently they're good.
So here they are

I was out on our porch last night, it was so beautiful, and well, I thought I heard you call my name. And I know how silly it is, but as I looked around, and you wern't there, I was crying, and yelling. Why wern't you there, I need you, and your gone, forever. And I know its not your fault, I've told myself again and again it wasn't. Well, I broke down that night, but I looked up, and I saw this star, brighter than all the others it reminded me of your smile, I felt a little less alone.
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Maybe you should go, cant you see I dont want you here, no one does. You've done enough damage already, why don't you leave before someone actually gets hurt. You're so... just leave, are you not happy with what you've accomplished, do you want me to break me a little more. well, too bad, I never wanna see your face again, and I will never forgive you for this.
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Your things are by the door, I think it would be better if you just go. We both know things havent been going well, and, I know you've been seeing someone. How could you think I wouldn't notice the late office nights, or the lipstick on your collar. But that not the part that bothers me, I want to know, did you ever, while you were with her, think of me, even once? (beat) right, well, your things are packed, we never would have lasted anyways.

three part post

Part 1: Tell the people around u that u love them. Randomly.

I would just like to say how much joy it brings me to call you my friends, and that I could ask for no one better. I am blessed by all the love I receive and I only hope you know I love you too. Life is unexpected, and I beleive it is the most important thing is to know you are loved and cared for. Because tomorrow is not a promise and everyone should live and love everyday they are given.
I love you, KenzieJo.

I sent that text out last night, after receiving some good advice, I just wanted everyone to know that I care for them, because its one of the most important things in life, and can change everyones life for the better.

part 2: school schedule

1.English, Krieger
2.Social Studies, Kooser
3.Sci by design, Lemieux
4. Science, Davidson
5. Drama, Tavern
6. Math, Wolff

I think this has been my best schedule yet, It'll make out for a great semester for sure.

part 3: End of summer

I"m sad that its ending, but its ended in the best way possible, I've gone to my grandmothers and saw my cousins. It's been a great summer all around though. I've hung out with somebody at least once a week. Gone to the farmers market almost every week, and have spent lots of time with my family. and even though school starts next week I'm ok with it, because I've used my summer time to its full extent.

Ps: Our blackberries have come in very well this year, Not even half are fully grown and its still too many for just our family. If you'd like some let me know, they are quiet delicious.

part 1: Departure

She stares into the blue oblivion above her, without the blemish of clouds its pale silk, pulled taunt over the horizon. The sun hung behind her, stretching her shadow until it broke on the white waves. Salt floats on the ocean breeze, overwhelming her senses and blurring her mind; but still all she can think about is him, still under the covers, not knowing shes left.

Her dress whips at her ankles, her curls hurricane off her shoulders. The winds pulling her to the sea, wanting to whisk her away from her life, she can't help but hope it does. But she plants herself, her head pillowed on the white sand, her eyes lulled closed by the rhythmic waves.

Dreams turned to nightmares, his infidelity shaking her awake to see shes still alone on the beach. Her legs pulse forward, to the dock where her boat bobs. The sail finally catches, the bow splitting the water clean. times no issue for her, the note's on her pillow, the boats stocked for months. It was time for her to leave and find something better.

no longer a dream

I got it! I got it!
Its so pretty, and shiny, and fun to take apart! I have no film though it uses 120 film and i don't know where to get it. I love it love it love it, I'm stoked!

Camera dreams

My camera will be ordered, Friday. I'm more excited than I imagined, like there is this growing twinge of it under my skin. I'm itching to get my hands on it, to see the world through it's plastic lens. I've seen the pictures on the site, and I want to make ones that can be presented on the site beside the ones already there.

I have so many ideas already, I look everywhere for them now, I'm very excited for the fair, and the parks, and taking many picture of my friends, both expected and blinding. So when I do receive my precious piece of plastic, and hopefully film, humor me please.