summer vacation, week one

This week has been fantastic. A hopeful omen that the rest of the summer will be just as nice. I learned to ride a bike(yes yes its sad, sue me, I never had anywhere to learn) and since that my father has gotten me a bike from a friend of his. Thank Krista for being my teacher.
I went to Kelsey'es party, a scavenger hunt leading us all around town. I'm happy to say we won, candy for everyone along with a yummy cupcake. Totally worth singing to the cupcake girls. She liked my present, an old queen record, and I'm glad it took forever for me and Krista to find it in the disorganized store.(thanks for that too Krista)
I may also have gotten a job for the summer. Baby sitting a young eighteen month old three days a week. This will be enough for my camera and new clothes for school.
Excited!

no neighbors... no fun?

So when we moved into this house I was a baby, and our surroundings were very different. Across the busy road, a small forest was there to explore. A field next to us held blackberries and animals, both of which invaded our yard on a daily basis. We has a few neighbors, the old man above us, who I only ever saw talking to my dad. There was Jade with her mini reserve, with plants and animals galore. I only had one true neighbor, the house sitting right next to us with a large yard we would often play baseball in. The family with a son, my brother's age, moved away long ago.
After they moved things changed, houses replaced the forest and field, cramped together, so close that when standing between two, you can touch the smooth paint of both houses. The houses took away the view, the adventure, the mystery. I was so confused that morning I awoke to dust in the air and the green trees on the ground. I felt like they took away my land, my childhood.
I got over it and moved on, happy that maybe I would have neighbors again. But I later found it wouldn't happen. The small playground didn't hold new friends, the half million dollar houses weren't inviting; I stayed to my house most of the time.
Sometimes something sparks inside, whenever I watch a movie about teenager best freinds, next door neighbors that spend every day together I wish I had it, instead of my lonely little house that I really do love. I want to be able to walk to someones house, watch a movie and stay for dinner. I doubt it will ever truely happen, I have my friends, and not many live close, not many like living next to the local cemetery, or on a busy street.
I love my house, and I have great friends, so thats all I really need.

PS: Its raining beautifly today, a thunderstorm is here it amazing. Happy Father's Day

five rules when buying a gift card

Im sure everyone has gotten a gift card in their life, a birthday or Christmas, its usually a good idea, but there are some rules that should be followed when getting a gift card.
1. Age appropriate, highschoolers do not want some spongebob gift card, its just lame
2. put the amount on the card, no one wants to call in and ask how much is on it
3. at least think about a store, dont just get the closest card, put at least a little effort in it. If you really don't want to get a mall one, something broad, or better yet, cash.
4. Don't say to "don't spend it all in one place," its a gift card... to one store
5. and last, but the most important, dont put just five dollars on it, get a price that goes with the store. Walmart, ten bucks all fine and dandy, but american eagle, hollister, anything costly, at least enough for a shirt, fifteen perfer twenty. If you dont wanna spend that much, go cash, at least they can choose how to spend it.

So if you ever buy me a gift, follow these, please.

things that make me smile, laugh, and giggle uncontrolably

1. My puppies(though at the moment only one)
2. teddy bears
3. water
4.Chuck Palahniuk
5.My Chemical Romance
6.Panic at the Disco
7.bubbles
8.sun
9.blackberries
10.my bass guitar
11.getting into page
12. summer
13.farmers market
14.wind
15.the fish on my phone
16.people getting stuck in chairs(like a beanbag chair or papasan chair)
17.my apple tree
18. etsy
19. Texts from last night
20. latfh
21. fmylife
22.cdbaby


for real, look at the sites they will brighten you day, cd baby has cds only five bucks, do it.

enjoy them, they're pure awesome.

Daydream of soft grass

Large field, green from east to west,surrounded by trees; I'm alone at the edge, waiting to fall to the grass, waiting for it to consume me. I walk forward, my balance like a tightrope walker, my arms to either side. My finger are spread like a dancer, I can feel the wind whistle between them. Then I lose my balance, turning, toppling, the grass is soft.

On my back I watch the clouds, marshmallows like bunnies and birds; the sun make them shine. I smell the pines around me, hear the birds sing within them, the grass is soft.

Day, night, day, night. Around me moves with blurring speed, I stay the same. The wind picks up, flowers bloom and die; the trees frosted to white, then back to green again. Unable to keep up, I shut my eyes, waiting for it to end. Still beneath me the grass is soft.

Ending I feel it, I'm in my own skin again, solid; able to keep up with the world around me. But behind closed eyes the world is gone. I walk looking, barren, jagged rocks and dying grass, its all gone. I closed my eyes for a moment and the beauty was gone. I look back to where I was sitting, its the same, a perfect circle of green among greys and browns. I sit down upon it again, just happy to admire that the grass is soft.

I close my eyes, my hands digging into the soft ground; I don't want the patch to leave, I want it all of it back. Wishing, praying, my face buried in the grass, the dew wets my face. Hours it seems I sit there, dozing off I'm quite certain; and when I'm concious I still dread to look around me. Deep breath I look up, hanging on the fact the grass is soft.

I look around, its different but not as it was first. Green again it was interupted by blue; clear as the sky above. I soak my feet for a while, koi swim around me, nibbling my toes; I laugh, I'm so ticklish. At last I wander back to the grass, the darken sky bright with constalations; I lay down comfortable since the grass is soft.